On the issue of succeeding in Anaheim, it is hard. We are 100 miles from the border and so we have lots of people coming here to seek opportunity, so the manual labor jobs are all taken, and the hotel jobs and the restaurant jobs, etc, are all hard to get because we have many people coming here to do those jobs. The way to rise above the high number of people coming here to do manual labor is to become educated and well trained and to rise to management positions and leadership positions, etc, or to become self employed and to create jobs and to hire people. I love the Mexicans, but they are taking the manual labor jobs and they are forcing Americans to go to college, etc.
And Rome has tourism, and a movie studio, and the Vatican, etc, plus I can find an Italian wife and she can help us to succeed together.
Of note, we need to educate the local people in the USA so they can get jobs and so they can create jobs for the many new uneducated immigrants who are coming here to do manual labor, which includes training the Black people in America so they do not end up homeless after all of the manual labor jobs are taken.
Anaheim is better than many places, but somehow I slipped through the cracks and became a dismal failure here, and after I came out of the hospital after my nervous breakdown then I became Institutionalized, people helped me with housing after I came out of the hospital, etc, but then I became accustomed to the help that they were giving me that I was denied the ability to be self sufficient and to take care of myself. I have not had a real job since 1999, and the time flew by. I tried to work, and I wanted to work, and I still want to work, but I have not been able to. And I have even been willing to sell hamburgers to tourists here, I was a cook at a casino in Nevada, and I do not mind cooking. A lot of actors and writers work in restaurants while they try to get work as actors and writers, but the restaurant jobs are hard to get now.
Meanwhile I am still trying to profit from the poetry book that I wrote 30 years ago, and the movie script that I wrote 23 years ago.
I am sympathetic and empathetic and I know that the world is a hard place so I try to be understanding of people, and life humbles us all, we will see what happens. But, at this point I do not think that I want to take any more classes nor do I want to do any more training, I feel like it is just a waste of time. And now I am old and I need to see a doctor regularly and I am on medication, etc. It is hard.
Life is not for the weak I guess. You gotta be strong, and you just need to keep going.
And here is a story about how location can change everything...
A Lady graduated from college, so her Father gave her an old Jeep that he had been saving for her.
When he gave it to her he asked her to take it to the pawn shop to see what they would give her for it. She took it to the pawn shop, and then she returned and told her Father that they said it is old and they offered her $500 dollars for it.
So, then her Father had her take the Jeep to the used car lot to see what they would give her for it. When she returned she told her father that they said it is old, and they offered her $1,000 for it.
Then, her Father asked her to take the Jeep to the Jeep club to see what they would give her for it. When she returned she told her Father that they said it is a rare and valuable collector's item, and the Jeep club offered her $100,000 for the Jeep.
That is how life is, when people treat us bad or do not pay us what we are worth then it does not mean that we are bad people, it just means that we are in the wrong location. If we are not valued in one location, then we need to find another location where we are valued.
And one time I was judged by a drug addict from a biker gang, I am not going to let people like that judge me, the fucker pulled a knife on me, and he was trying to act like I was the scumbag instead of him. Scumbags will try to make me look like a scumbag, and that just means I am around the wrong people and I am in the wrong location.
I would rather go to Italy and hang out with the Catholics, and hopefully find a good Catholic wife.
The hard part is not to melt down and throw everything away, and then also I do not want to become bitter and hardened, etc.
And I might just have to try to be happy with a simple life selling hamburgers to tourists in Rome, and writing and acting as a hobby. I do not know.
For sure I do not want to fight with the Blacks and Gays and others, I wish everyone the best. I just want to be able to have a wife and family and home and have my slice of the pie too, which has not happened yet and it is not happening now.
I wish Universal Studios would have paid me good back in 1995 and if they did then I would still be working there. But instead they payed me minimum wage and starved me until I quit.
Rome has Cinecitta which is the largest movie studio in Europe, and I would rather work for the Italians instead of the Japanese who owned Universal when I worked there.
Salute,
Tony V.