I have a friend here in Anaheim who was Mayor Pro Tem of Anaheim on 9/11, and who served at Anaheim City Hall, after retiring as a school teacher, she is in a retirement home now, and she is my friend on Facebook, and she has been reading my writing, and she told me that I am a great writer and she told me that I should pursue writing and she said that I might become very successful as a writer.
I told her about my poetry book, and about my movie script, and I told her that I have a lot of ideas for new television shows and movies, and that I intend to go to the film school to get help to make my movie, and to publish my poetry book.
All of my life, since I was a little kid, people have told me that I have a great imagination, and that I should be a writer.
I am reminded of what they said about not being able to judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, and that is how life has been, I feel like a fish that they are trying to turn into a tree climber. I am color blind, so I cannot be a cop or a soldier. I am not talented when it comes to construction work, and for me it is like slave labor, I did not join a union and the pay was very low, I would rather work for Habitat for Humanity for free and just give everyone free housing. Anyhow, I have never been able to make any money, and some people are trying to turn me into something that I am not, instead of letting me flourish via my God given talents.
I was handsome when I was young, and a lot of people told me that I should be an actor, and I like acting, so I went to acting school. And I have always been a good writer, so I took writing classes, and I worked to improve my skill as a writer. The whole thing with poetry just came natural, and for me it was therapeutic. If I do things that come natural and that I enjoy then I can flourish.
And I love to eat, and I enjoy cooking, so I did not mind working as a cook at a casino in Nevada, the only bad part was that the pay was so low, again it felt like slave labor. Hard work for low pay. But, if I had my own casino, or my own night club, where I could cook, then I could make good money and I could have a good life. So, it was beneficial to learn how to cook and to learn how to run a casino.
Working at Universal Studios was good for me, and I learned a lot, including from Lew Wasserman who used to eat lunch with the workers, but again the pay was so low that I just felt like slave labor. I was literally going hungry when I worked at Universal and I was skin and bones. I was not skinny because I wanted to be skinny, I was skinny because I could not afford to buy food. If they paid me good, and if they treated me well, then I would have kept my job and I would still be working there, if I could have bought a house and found a wife and raised as family, that would have been great. But paying college educated people the bare minimum is just no fun at all.
I hate growing old poor and alone, and my talents have not been serving me well, I need to use my talents to rise.
Having a dear friend who I respect telling me that I am a great writer and that I should pursue writing makes me feel wonderful, and I need to keep going, and I need to go to the film school and get help as I have planned. And my friend from here in Anaheim is so nice to give me encouragement, it means a lot to me.
We will see what happens.
Meanwhile, at least I am not homeless on the streets, or living in a car, I am grateful for food and shelter while I try to get my movie made, and my poetry book published, and while I write more stuff. I can also volunteer to act in student films, etc. And maybe I can find a good woman who wants to write and produce with me, we can be a husband and wife team.
And I have a passport, so I can travel, which is great. People who owe money for child support, or who have felony crime convictions on their record, have problems getting passports and traveling. My record is clean, and I do not have any children and I do not owe any child support. And that helps to make Italy, and Greece, and Monaco, etc, nicer, because the criminals cannot get passports to travel there.
Anyhow, it was nice to get a compliment on my writing ability from someone I respect.
Salute,
Tony V.